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It has always been my dream to pursue in art course since I was in primary school . Ok, although before that I was dreaming of becoming a NURSE because the archetype or ideal nurse image is traditionally depicted as an angel/superheroine figure which Im apparently far from it.   
I've always kept that in silence because I am afraid of being judged by people , especially my parents and relatives, that doing art is not realistic. & I do get this kind'a comment quite often, even till now !  I know, I know very clearly that this is not realistic , but I wanna live my life to the fullest . I wanna do something that I am keen in and be happy with it. I don't wanna push myself and end up sulking everyday at work. If you want to be more enganged in your own life you need to find the courage to pursue your secret hopes and ambitions .. 
Often a defeating belif lurks behind an excuse or a fear. Frankly, from the very beginning , after I collected my result , I could sense and hear Him prompting me to pursue my dream, but I was reluctant . I was confined by the fact that I might do well in Poly though the course is totally not what I wanted. Not even a little bitsy . I thought I could endure through the 3 years of education and atleast get a diploma and after that, with the peace in the heart, I can then spend 2 more years doing something related to arts. Well, It didn't work out. I could hear this prompting in my mind , in my heart , that I should not waste my time and IT IS NOT GOING TO WORK OUT. So, finally after some prayers and consultation, I finally made up my mind and open up to my parents when we were having dinner one saturday. Surprisingly, my mum was the supportive one ! Yes, I did went through a severe tongue lashing from them at the beginning . Dad wanted me to stay in Poly, but later, he gave up. SORRY PAPA ! 
I am on the way towards chasing that dream I consciously know is my life mission, and I'mma go for it ..Whether will I be a successful person or not, whether will I be able to earn money in the future, whether will people look down on me, I am giving it a shot ! Afterall, this is my life isn't it ? & I have the assurance of someone, someone very important at my back . Giving me the comfort and support no matter what situation I am in. I couldn't help but become so weak before Him . Thank you Lord Jesus from heaven above ! 
Fulfilling your dreams will remain a mirage if you simply sit down and dream on. There comes a time you simply have to rise up and just do it. There is no better time than now.
P.S - NIE , I wanna be a teacher .. P.S - Proud of myself ! =D |
Just had dinner with my family . Not gonna spend this special night being squashed in the club or down at town . Though I did went down to town this noon. 
